Thursday, 29 October 2009

Post 101 - Honesty Dilema

Mum told me she called K, today. After a chat K decided she wanted to see me before the weekend. Mum called her and her & D have been worried, but as i knew K didn't say a thing - although mum did reveal she had read part of my diary, which was laying on my bed, NOT open i might add! From what it seems she may have read some of the bit written in A & E a week ago.

So now i have this appointment with K tomorrow, do i:

  1. be totally honest reveal the further harm, how desperate it feel, how i have to cause pain to feel emotion right now,
  2. skirt around the truth, don't bring up the subject of harming and see what she has to say,
  3. or pretend things are getting better, deny any more harming, lie through my teeth until i'm blue in the face and get the hell out there ASAP?

Plus i have to pray the post hasn't arrived by 11am because i've sent an anonomous balloon to say thank you for last friday and everything they did (and have done for the last 12 years), but i did say certain things that might reveal who the sender has been.

3 people had something to say about this:

Seeker said...

I hope your appointment went ok - and that you were completely honest about everything. It really is the only way to be if you want things to improve.


Anonymous said...

I still don't know what to say Susie, it's horrible to read how much you are suffering, but I'm glad you are still posting.

As for honesty, well, despite being completely unable to be honest with people myself, I think it's the best course of action. But only if you trust K. Can it really make things worse? You're carrying a huge amount of stuff around, it seems like it might help to download some?

Lola x

Susie said...

She didn't directly ask - I didn't say.

Lola - know of any way to directly connect your brain to a word processor?

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