Feeling Clever

I know it's nothing amazing but the fact that i've managed to do this makes me feel pleased with myself - which is a rare thing these days.

Due to my paranoia about being 'discovered' by family or friends who i feel should be protected from the inner workings of my messed mind, I have set up a completely separate account with my new name "Susie Belle".

Susie refers to a family member who i have often been told i am like and is very close to my heart, and i expect always will be.

Belle, is a disney character who i can clearly identify with. It has been one of my favourite musicals since i was a young child and i'm suprised my VHS of it hasn't worn out! These days i've got the sheet music and have sung songs from that in a young musician competition (i didn't win, it seemed they liked classical rather than musicals). In the song entitled "Belle" there are so many lyrics i can identify with, here's a brief selection:

TOWNSFOLK
Look there she goes that girl is strange, no question
Dazed and distracted, can't you tell?
WOMAN
Never part of any crowd
MAN
'Cause her head's up on some cloud
TOWNSFOLK
No denying she's a funny girl that Belle

BELLE
There must be more than this provincial life!

TOWNSFOLK
Look there she goes that girl is so peculiar
I wonder if she's feeling well
With a dreamy, far-off look
And her nose stuck in a book
What a puzzle to the rest of us is Belle

SHOPKEEPER
But behind that fair facade
I'm afraid she's rather odd
MAN
Very diff'rent from the rest of us
TOWNSFOLK
She's nothing like the rest of us
Yes, diff'rent from the rest of us is Belle!

TOWNSFOLK
Look there she goes
The girl is strange but special
A most peculiar mad'moiselle!
WOMEN
It's a pity and a sin
MEN
She doesn't quite fit in
TOWNSFOLK
'Cause she really is a funny girl
A beauty but a funny girl
She really is a funny girl
That Belle!


So there we are, i have a name and hopefully my secrets are safe (unless of course it's too late!)