Battling myself

self confidence vs self hatred.

self hatred wants to go to the gym (with the free guest pass) and do something about the hideousness. self confidence doesn't want to go because it means facing the wide world on my own, no-one (i.e mum) to hide behind.

for once i actually want self hatred to win through. hopefully it will be quiet mid morning on a monday, either that or maybe i'll hide in the ladies area and hope there's no-one in there.