Breakdown imminent

I have been fighting the tears all morning, and eating & picking constantly to fuel the fight.

Salted cashews

mini chocolate bars (chomp & dairy milk)

fruit & fibre

Sharon fruit

banana

pear

clementines.......

(plus a bowl of fruit and fibre for breakfast)

Why can't i stop? why can't i fight the appetite instead of the emotions?

I want to through things, break things, smash things. I want to attack. I can't break plates or dishes........time for a walk on the ice? pray for a broken bone instead? choose the shoes with the least grip, choose the most perilous path.

Accidents are permitted, but all other emotions & anxiety must be hidden at weekends.

• No crying, no screaming, no sobbing.
• No running out of the house.
• No self harm.

Weekends are the time to be on your best behaviour.